A Fairy Tale

You feel there is something wrong with you. You need to go to the doctor to have a check-up. But you don't want to because you know he will just confirm your suspicions. You're afraid you can't deal with it.

We all say we want to know the truth. But can you handle it? Sometimes, we put off finding out the harsh reality of the matter because ignorance is bliss. What we don't know can't hurt us. We want to believe the farce that everything is okay. In short, we are believing and living a lie.

I know the next thing I should say is to have the courage and conviction to find out the truth and deal with it. But I can't. Because, I too, don't want the fairy tale to end. I still want to hold on to "happily ever after……….."

The Deciding Factor

Look before you leap. He who hesitates is lost.

Nothing ventured, nothing gain. Fools rush in where angels fear to tread.

Seek and ye shall find. Curiosity killed the cat.

Life is what we make it. What is to be will be.

Get my drift?!?

Before, I thought quotes were words to wisdom to live by. But how can this be when one quote can contradict another. It's like when you were just a kid and your mom is telling you one thing and your dad is telling you another. Who do you follow? Decisions, decisions, decisions. Do we really have to decide? I can't make up my mind (that's the Libra in me talking). I guess that's the price we pay for having free will. The freedom to choose. I guess somebody forgot to mention about the responsibility that comes with it. Aaarghh!! I'm going out of my mind weighing the pros and cons. A well meaning friend told me to go with my guts — instinct, intuition or whatever you call it. Well, my gut is telling me I'm hungry. Later.

Retrospective

FLASHBACK : Ever had one of those days when nothing is going right. Today is one of those days. Everything is going opposite of what I expected. It's like there's this grand conspiracy to ruin my life. It's Murphy's law to the extreme. I wish I just stayed in bed. I wish this day is just one big nightmare and that any second now I'll wake up and be relieved that it was just a dream. What did I do to deserve this? Maybe it's karma for all the bad things I've done. Maybe I really brought this onto myself. You reap what you sow. I wish I could skip this part of my life and jump into the future (if I still have one).

PRESENT: In retrospect, it wasn't really that a bad day. I just had my priorities mixed up. The things I considered important then are so trivial now. Thanks for the second chance.

Turn back the hands of time

There are a lot of things we regret doing or not doing in the past. We all wish we could turn back the hands of time and redo or undo the things we did. Somehow, we think we could have done it better or not done it at all. We wish we could make things right again. We wish we could undo the pain, anguish, hatred, anger and suffering we've caused other people and ourselves. If we made the right choices then we wouldn't be in this predicament right now. Because of it, we now have to live with the consequences of our actions.

But who are we to say that we made the wrong choices then? What if we were meant to go through it —– to learn, to be stronger, to be wiser, to grow? As they say, what is meant to be will always find a way. I know we shouldn't second guess ourselves. What's done is done. It's all in the past. But one way or another, we have to reflect and learn from it. For I firmly believe that if we haven't learned our lesson, we are bound to repeat the same mistakes again…and again…. and again.

Guilty Pleasure

I've just read some blogs of my friends and from netizens whom I have never met. You might ask why do I bother reading blogs from people whom I don't know from Adam. I just find them interesting and intriguing. During the course of my blog hopping, I've encountered different kinds of blog entries.
 

Some are photo blogs. Pictures are posted and sometimes a small caption accompanies it. As the song goes, "… a picture paints a thousand words…".

Another kind of blog is that of the slambook type. The blogger posts fave lyrics of songs, poems, letters, pictures of friends and what have you.

I have also read a blog which I'd like to call an opinion blog. The entries are basically thoughts and the stand of the person on a particular issue. It is like reading an opinion column in a newspaper.

The most common type of entries are journal type blogs. It is like reading someone else's diary but with permission. For me, this is the most entertaining.

This blog reading is fast becoming a guilty pleasure. =oP