Asereth's Musings

Free Ride

May 20, 2009

I think a made an impression to one of the cab drivers who brings me home from the office late at night or in the wee hours in the morning. What kind of impression? I don’t know exactly but it was probably something positive. I’ve ridden on his vehicle quite a number of times.  And the last 2 times, he didn’t accept my payment no matter how I tried to insist. (I don’t want to sound like an elitist here but) I know he needs the money more than I do but he just waived it off. Nice, no? Wait, wait, wait, before anyone thinks he has an ulterior motive, I beg to differ. Oh, sometimes he makes small talk but only for a few minutes then he’d just continue driving in silence. He just does that to acknowledge me. And he hasn’t done anything that would make feel uncomfortable (except for showing me such kindness), he hasn’t even asked for my name or anything personal. Note to self, add him to my Christmas list. Ngek, I don’t know his name.

Anyway, I thank God for you, manong. It’s people like you who restores my faith in humanity and inspires me to become a better person. May God always give you traveling mercies and may your tribe increase. Take care and God bless =o)

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I am sorry…

May 17, 2009

Three simple words yet so hard to say. Why? Because you are admitting you made a mistake and no one likes to be proven wrong. You have to eat the humble pie. There might be also repercussions in admitting your mistake.

Now let’s take things further…. Why do we really apologize? Apologizing doesn’t really change anything. Apologizing doesn’t undo the damage we did. Like if we accidentally bump into someone and the book he’s carrying falls, we apologize. Then if we are not so self-absorbed, we pick up the book that has fallen. Saying “I am sorry” can’t undo the fact that we caused the book to fall. Retreving the book was a more practical response. It still doesn’t take back our mistake but at least it rectified the situation. So why do we say those three little words? We do so because we don’t want things to escalate? The person carrying the book might take offense because it was a first edition hard to find expensive book? It was an automatic repsonse? A social norm? We apologize because we sincerely made a mistake. If that is so, do we apologize to make the offendee feel better? Or do we apologize to make ourselves feel better? To assauge the guilt we are feeling? So things would be back to normal. I really don’t know….

But for someone like me who could do better by eating her “pride”-chicken every now and then, apologizing is not an easy task but I’m getting there (read: work in progress). So when I do so, you could be assured of its sincerity. I apologize not because I need to but because I want to. You cannot coerce me to apologize if I really don’t feel like it.

 

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Me lovee Tumblr.

May 16, 2009

I have a multiply and livejournal account.

Yup, you read it right, I confess, I do have multiply and livejournal accounts. But before you start saying I’m holding out or I have changed spots, let me state for the record that these are just dummy accounts. I only created them so I could read the private blogs of friends and whatnots. If you would go to my pages all you’d see is a blank wall.

But tumblr is an entirely different story.

My cat lovin’ friend introduced me to it cause she knows I love quotes. And upon sampling it, I was hooked. I just lost myself for hours browsing through the different blogs. It had nice pictures and even better quotes. What more could I ask for? At first I was contented with just reading the quotes and admiring the pix but eventually I opened my own account.  Right now, I’m posting a quote once a day. Nothing fancy but at least it’s my original*. A few of the pictures are from my personal collection though majority I filched from the ‘net. =oP

Should you have the time and inclination, the link is in the More of Me portion. And no worries, I’m still keeping this blog alive coz I have grown to love it, too. =o)

*My quotes do not ALWAYS reflect the current state of my mind or heart. These are just words that popped into my head while thinking of somethin’ -something. (hehehe…. my current fave expression when I cannot think of the appropriate words).

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He’s just not that into you

May 7, 2009

If you need a great dose (or a splash) of reality….

Highly recommended for all my male or female “patient” friends and relatives whether single or in a relationship (defined or otherwise). I could see bits and pieces of them (okay, okay, myself included) in the characters played. =oP

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A-typical

May 2, 2009

“You have type A personality.”

Whaaaaat?!!!!  You surely must be jesting. C’mon… Me, a type A? That couldn’t be more farther from the truth. I consider myself quite relaxed and laidback.

It’s a good thing the person who said that was my physician else that conversation would have ended in a debate. In fairness, the good doctor doesn’t know me well enough to say such statement. He only said that from what he observed during my confinement*. Well, it didn’t help that every time he did his rounds, I was tinkering with my laptop or I was on the phone talking to someone from the office. And being cooped up in my room for several days wondering what the hell’s wrong with me didn’t help my disposition either.

But that got me thinking, do I really have a type A personality? Or am I just deluding myself into thinking I’m easy-going and have a carefree attitude? So I asked some people who know me well enough to answer this question.

The first person I asked was just as flabbergasted as I was with the notion. She rejected the idea outright. Right-on, mi amiga.

The second person I asked was the person who’ve known me my entire life — my mom. She said without batting an eyelash that I’m type A. She said I’m so wound-up, impatient and irritable. But only with her. Don’t get me wrong, I love my mom to pieces but she’s the only person I know who can turn me from Jekyll to Hyde in an instant.

The third person I asked didn’t really answer my question. Hmmm……… I wonder why.

The fourth person I asked said that I have a type A personality when it comes to work but I’m happy go lucky in the other aspects of my life. I disagree but I respect her opinion.

The last person I asked told me that I don’t have a type A personality. He said I’m just very responsible when it comes to serious matters and very lighthearted to the things I like. Good answer, contestant number 5, plus 1000 pogi points. hehehehe

*Yes, I was hospitalized but I’m ok now, I think. Still don’t know what caused the bleeding (where is House when you need him?) but I’m fine. To all those who wished me well and helped me one way or the other, thanks! To those who respected my privacy, plus 10000 points on your emotional back account. To those who are still TK (tampong kulangot) at me coz I didn’t tell them I was sick, sorry na…… please, pretty, pretty please. I admit, double standards. I worry about others but I don‘t like other people worrying about me. Bygones?

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