I'm long overdue for a good cry. But I can't. I am not yet allowing myself of that luxury.

I am not in denial. I'm just trying to put on a brave front. For if I stop being strong, the falling dominos phenomenon would occur.

Though nowadays, I am so emotional. A small thing could make me teary eyed and my temper now can be so easily triggered.

I'm scared that one of these days, I won't be able to deal and explode.

I'm just running on adrenalin and faith.