Allergy Attack

I have allergies. When I eat certain kinds of food, my body has reacts "negatively" to it. When I was young, I would break out in rashes whenever I have allergy attacks. It was itchy and so uncomfortable. As I've gotten older (not necessarily wiser), I don't break out into rashes anymore. Good, right? WRONG!!!

Constant Change

The only things constant in life is change. What a paradox, but it's the truth. I wish things don't change. Though change for the betterment is good but gradually, please (my heart can only take so much). I'm the type of person who doesn't like her boat being rocked. I like everything stable and steady. But that's not possible. Circumstances change. People come, people go. Everything has a beginning and an end. You might say I am adverse to change because I like status quo. I like things as they are because it gives me a sense of security, a sense of normalcy. When things change and I have already thought of that possibility prior to its occurence, it becomes more bearable because I am forewarned, therefore forearmed. But when the totally unexpected happens, I feel like somebody pulled the rug under my feet. I'm devastated, disoriented and/or disillusioned. Maybe I should become a ninja so that I could expect the unexpected.

He said, She said

She's talking to me. He's talking to me. I can't tell them that they are both talking to me. Sometimes, they tell me the same story but from their own perspective. One story comes out as drama, the other as a tirade. Don't ask me how that happened. At times, their stories are conflicting. I don't know who is telling the truth. All I know is that one of them is lying, I just don't know who. I can't accuse anybody of anything because I'm not supposed to know all the "facts". I'm caught between a rock and a hard place. It crossed my mind to let them just have a face-off. But I know that would be detrimental to my well-being. If and when they find out that they are both confiding in me, I'm sure they are going to be angry. But I did not betray their trust. I'm just being a sounding board. I'm toast. =o(

Substance Abuse

I'm an addict. Nope, I'm not into drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. I'm a chocoholic. I love eating chocolates. It's one of my comfort foods. I don't like the white and dark (bitter) kind. I like the normal brown ones preferably with nuts, rice crispies, mallows or a mix. Yummy! I like to think I am a generous person, I'd share my food with anybody. But when it comes to my fave imported chocolates, I become Selfish (take note of the capital S). I know I should cut down on my chocolate intake because my family has a history of diabetes. But I can't help it. Every now and then, I crave for this sinfully delicious goodies. I can still remember the time when I wished that our staple food was chocolate not rice. I don't know the nutritional value of this sweet things but I know that they release endorphins, the same neurotransmitters that make you feel good when falling in love. Hmmm……

Naked Truth

There are some truths in this world that are harder to bear. The first time the idea of the possibility that it could be real passes through your mind, you couldn't believe that you are entertaining such thought. When the words are uttered by someone who has impeccable integrity, you think it is a matter of a wrong perception. But when evidence start piling up, you pray it is just a huge mistake. And when the truth is staring you straight in the eye, you cover yourself in denial. You refuse to acknowledge the fact of its existence. It is like the big gray elephant inside the room that nobody takes notice. When the inevitable moment comes, when your hand is forced to face it,

Will you accept it? Be oblivious to it? Flat out deny it?

The choice that you will make will not be based on facts presented nor by the inner turmoil you are feeling.

You will select the choice that let's you make it through the day.